Anger...
Lord, I am angry. I'm so angry right now, I have a hard time concentrating on anything. I feel cheated, undermined, undervalued, disrespected... You name it, I probably feel it right now.
Where do Silvia and Marty get off? Why do they think they have the right to not pay the entire invoice because they decided what I deserved? Who are they to make this judgement? They never would have attempted this type of thing with anyone else, a bigger company or contractor. Nope. But I'm just a kid. Who cares? I don't know what I'm doing anyways, right?
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
I feel like exploding. Why would they treat me like this? Is it not bad enough that I underestimated the job in the first place? Is it bad enough that I made about $5 an hour and absolutely worked my tail off for them? Is there no appreciation from them?
I could just holler. Lord, forgive me for this anger. I know you don't want me to carry this around, and I need to be able to let it go before it hurts me. They've wronged me, but what more can I do? I have expressed my feelings to them, and will probably do so again tommorrow. But I can't do anything more than that. If they want to be underhanded and cheat me like this, that's they choice. They will have to accept the responsibility for it.
Lord, I worked hard for them and I've been snuffed. I worked long hours, spending time away from my family, causing a lot of pain and aches in my body. But I did it because I promised them I would. Why wouldn't they respond with any gratitude? Why would they do this?
Lord, heap piles of coal on their heads! Bring them no rest! Cause them guilt! Cause them shame! Lord, don't let them get away with what they've done! May they continually feel shame for their actions! May you make them realize the pain they caused! May you not let up until they make things right! Lord!
Father, I give this situation to you. May you deal with it as you see fit. You are the avenger. You are also the God of forgiveness. What would you do in this situation? Roll over and take it? I don't think so. But you would let them know you felt wronged. That's all I can do, right? That's all I can say? And then I have to leave it in your hands, and worry about the beams in my own eyes. Father, forgive me for my rage. Please, take this anger from me. Take my hurt. Take my discouragement. Lord, please, take these things from me! Remove them from me so that I can live my life to the fullest! I need to let them go, or else they will drag me down. Give me freedom, I pray! May this situation be a thing of the past for me, and may you give me wisdom to deal with any situation that may arise again with them.
Thank you for your patience. Thank you for your forgiveness. Thank you for your love. And thank you for your mercy. I know, Lord, that you love them, and I need to love them. If they confessed their sins and repented, you would forgive them! Help me to forgive them too. Thank you, Lord. You are with me, I know, and you do comfort me, I have felt it.
Thank you.
Where do Silvia and Marty get off? Why do they think they have the right to not pay the entire invoice because they decided what I deserved? Who are they to make this judgement? They never would have attempted this type of thing with anyone else, a bigger company or contractor. Nope. But I'm just a kid. Who cares? I don't know what I'm doing anyways, right?
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
I feel like exploding. Why would they treat me like this? Is it not bad enough that I underestimated the job in the first place? Is it bad enough that I made about $5 an hour and absolutely worked my tail off for them? Is there no appreciation from them?
I could just holler. Lord, forgive me for this anger. I know you don't want me to carry this around, and I need to be able to let it go before it hurts me. They've wronged me, but what more can I do? I have expressed my feelings to them, and will probably do so again tommorrow. But I can't do anything more than that. If they want to be underhanded and cheat me like this, that's they choice. They will have to accept the responsibility for it.
Lord, I worked hard for them and I've been snuffed. I worked long hours, spending time away from my family, causing a lot of pain and aches in my body. But I did it because I promised them I would. Why wouldn't they respond with any gratitude? Why would they do this?
Lord, heap piles of coal on their heads! Bring them no rest! Cause them guilt! Cause them shame! Lord, don't let them get away with what they've done! May they continually feel shame for their actions! May you make them realize the pain they caused! May you not let up until they make things right! Lord!
Father, I give this situation to you. May you deal with it as you see fit. You are the avenger. You are also the God of forgiveness. What would you do in this situation? Roll over and take it? I don't think so. But you would let them know you felt wronged. That's all I can do, right? That's all I can say? And then I have to leave it in your hands, and worry about the beams in my own eyes. Father, forgive me for my rage. Please, take this anger from me. Take my hurt. Take my discouragement. Lord, please, take these things from me! Remove them from me so that I can live my life to the fullest! I need to let them go, or else they will drag me down. Give me freedom, I pray! May this situation be a thing of the past for me, and may you give me wisdom to deal with any situation that may arise again with them.
Thank you for your patience. Thank you for your forgiveness. Thank you for your love. And thank you for your mercy. I know, Lord, that you love them, and I need to love them. If they confessed their sins and repented, you would forgive them! Help me to forgive them too. Thank you, Lord. You are with me, I know, and you do comfort me, I have felt it.
Thank you.
posted by Scott | 12:38 PM
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