Thorn? More like a double edged sword...

Lord, I'm falling fast. I'm too weak, I'm out of control. Help me.

Please. Forgive me. I am a rotten sinner, who does not deserve your mercy. But, please. Forgive me. Forgive me, and may I sin no longer!

How do I stop? How do I regain control? How do I make it without falling into the same traps? How do I walk away from all that is pulling me so strong? How do you continue to forgive?

Forgive me! Lord, I need your forgiveness! I know you promise it to us, but I do not feel like you will give it to me! I continue to fall, and I continue to abuse your mercy. How could you forgive me? How could you allow me back up after failing you so many times?

Ahhh, forgive me, Lord! Not only for my sin of lust, but also for my sin of disbelief! You are so much greater than me. You are so much greater than my sin. You are so much greater than anything I've ever seen, or ever will see on this earth. Lord, you are BIG, and I am small. I may never understand your forgiveness, but that doesn't make it any less real! You came to this earth, endured life as one of us, and then died a horrible death on the cross so that I might experience forgiveness! And I spit in your face and say "How can you forgive me?" Father, what an insult I bring to you! Thank you for your forgiveness.

Thank you for the cross. I am forgiven. I am cleansed. I am pure, because of the sacrifice you made on the cross. I am a new creation! Blessed be your name! Father, you are so much greater than the strength of my tempations! You hold the power of the universe in your hand! With a word, you could cure me of these sins! Alas, you allow me to struggle to give me strength in you. Show your power, oh Lord my God! Show your power to me! Give me strength to fight these tempations! Give me wisdom to run! Give me courage to fight! Give me the will to overcome! In your name, these things WILL BE DONE! AMEN.